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I have been in hell for 1540 days. Doesn’t really feel that long. It’s amazing how things start to blend together in that time. How you can justify wasting your time for a good reason. 1540 days.

There is so much I want to say but I can not find the words. Insomnia has plagued me for close to a month and a half now. Sleep, when it does come, is restless. I am struggling to hold the pieces of me together. I want to cry, I want to scream, I want….so [...]

a work in progress
and it is all distorted
as I separate myself into pieces
create versions of myself
to appease and please
my face always smiling
but inside i’m slowly dying
as my pieces are taken
used
abused
and discarded
no one to blame
I have allowed this to happen
allowed them to control me
to covet me
to so called love me
to turn me into a concubine
fuck me
and [...]